Hm... time to update. Well the last entry was how me and Mary can talk now... well we can, but we don't. I was ditched again over the summer when we were supposed to go swimming in my appartment's pool. Oh well, I made better ones- lost a few of those- but through it all I can see who is really goignto be there for me and who isn't.
Ben and I broke up, I suppose i should change that picture soon. It was after Prom... and it sucked for the both of us. I dated two friends from work- first didn't work out- second did, but we agreed that it wouldn't work after a while and we were better as friends. Then I saw Chris, who was one of bens friends although they really didn't keep intouch that much. and that was a bad idea. Now Ben won't have anything to do with Chris. He wasn't oging to have anything to do with me either, but then he changed. I really thought we were going to get back together. I had a ring picked out and just ideas- and I thought it was time to be happy again and settle. but, then that didn't work out- and he left. so... Im just chilling here. Alone.
Chris is a really good friend- im glad that we could go from ahving a relationship to still being best friends afterwards. that takes talent and much maturity! Thanks Chris! Love you my darling sweet tater cakes! HaHaHaHaHa!
Anyway- so Im chiling here at USC. I was rooming with Jessica, but that didn't work out too good. We just weren't compatible in the same room anymore. So I moved out to the Roost- even further away from campus. But its cool here- everyone is nice. A lot of people stay to themselves, but when they talk they are friendly. this makes for nice people not getting too close- thus taking away future problems. My new roomie Heidi is cool- but I don't see her around too much-
She has a serious boyfriend- and its really sweet. I am refreshed by her and her ways. its nice! She understands me okay i think- she went through the same crazy sort of thing i did this summer- but her and her guy worked it out. Its sweet. She is also a year older- and has been there done that already- which helps too. I just feel kinda bad for intruding on her - i mean housing didn't even tell her i was coming- that wasn't cool at all! But she is a good influence on me- and will keep me in line - without being judgmental or talking shit. she says her stuff upfront. and i really respect that.
So classes are rough- im not doing too hot in any of them, but i have time to work on that. I work here in my dorm like 30 hours a week so that is good. I wanted to go abroad to Germany, but my parents decided to say no. They aren't goign to let me go - even though i am A. 18 B. Going to pay for all of it C. have it all planned out D. 18... its really gay. i had like aplan and everything and then they are going to tell me no. what is goign to change from now to a year from now? I will be 19? They will still not be able to help me much- i will still have to pay for it myself- and all of my other bills.... so... i don't get it. Its gay. Im also mad just at the fact im not getting my way. my parents are always cool and reasonable- and I am too- so when i don't get to do something that i have set and meets those thigns, it really bothers me. I have the power to just leave. but... im not sure i want to burn that bridge right now- when they are paying tuition. but then, i might just rather take out a damn loan then have no more freedom then i did when i was living with them. I don't know...
oh, back to updating about the summer. Carowinds... pulled a real cute move. They were all like " you guys aren't making us enough money- you have a week vacation. in a week if your replacements are doing better you need to find another job." and that was it. i cam eback a week later- looked at the numbers- they said they saw an improvement, but it wasn't a valid experiment. and the numbers didn't add up either. there were so many variables and factors... they said that i was on the maybe list to go. i could have went back as a lead instead of a team leader, but hell no. How am i going to work for people I raised?? People I taught?? and they couldn't move me to another area0- because i worked with everyone! so i left. and was jobless losing about 1500 for not working 3 1/2 weeks. it was really gay.
Then, here in school my greatgrandfather died. that was rough too. ive talked about it so much, id rather not now. check out like myspace or something.
Also, we moved! yay- the new house is done! And, i am having a christmas party forlike- the few friends i have. which is okay since i am paying for it all. lol.... um.. yeah anyway it is beautiful! its so big and pretty and new. ive only seen itlike 3 times, but its good. i like it a lot- and im excited to get home to unpack and unwrap and organize everything! and see my bunny! I miss her a lot! I think im acutally goign to roll up in rock hill this weekend for a little bit! it will be nice. Well Im out for now- i have to finish my Resident Advisor application and then go to check out this chicken finger wed. thing with chris. Aparently itslike the shit- but i've never had it here before! | 
